[12-27-24] END OF 2024

What a year it has been, Our third end of the year for this Website! This year has been a Equilibrium of Good and Bad overall with a bunch of Stress.

The Goods

This year has been a big one for me when it comes to Art in particular. This year I have made more Art in a year than I have ever done in the past years of attempting to do Art. As you all notice last year was very weak when it came to the amount of work I have done this far. Well, This year as of right now We're approaching nearly 50 pieces of art done since I started and that my Art page is FILLED to the brim with art and experimental art I have done. Honestly, I attribute this to Not having a job for 6 months and my motivation from having continuous commissions of people doing something wrong over and over and over again, I don't often get any sketches to be asked and when I did and need to correct them, My correction goes ignored. I still commission people and recently I did get a really good commission but fucking christ they STILL got some things wrong and not even sending me a sketch to see if everything looks good. Sigh, It's alright at least they know now the next time I commission them that they will be getting some things right, That's kinda why I made my more recent Lumia reference which I will say looks WAY better than my old one, It goes to show how much I've improved, and I will try my best to continue to improve. I may go back to my non pixel art, I've been doing it as of recent to de-rust my Drawing skills in pixels plus I really like Flipnote style brushes a lot, They're fun to draw with! But at this point I feel like i'm done experimenting and that I now have a solid barring on how I want to draw now. All I gotta do is continue to improve more and more and continue to draw. It's hard to draw good daily so I gotta go mediocre on my Webcomic. WHICH! I'm hoping I can get it out there next month but we will get more into that later.

If anything else I guess I can say that was good is getting 6k from hitting a Deer. My car still drives just fine just now it has a dent and the value is a lot less, But it truly helped me in a time when I was jobless and being able to standby while finding a job in a comfortable position was really nice. Though kinda sucks it's all gone now :/

Getting a new job even though it kinda sucks, Having stable income is really good however! I've actually been getting a lot more used to it and actually losing weight because of it, The only sucky part that I HATE the most is how bad my ankles can be after working for a while. Some weeks I'm mostly fine but sore and others can just be hardly standing up in the middle of the week. Which puts a huge toll onto me, Still better position than how it was with my old job...

The Bads

My Fiance getting Cancer once again and being told how it could be more aggressive, Which made this year extremely fucking stressful. At first her chemo basically only stalled the growth before her next scan shown that it grown and not only that but popped another spot. The next Chemo she took, actually worked for the first scan and projected that it would shrink completely at this month actually, It also completely deleted that spot that cropped up too. However, It actually end up stalling the growth in october. And now she's on Chemo that's really kicking her ass and what I learned that so far it's actually working, But I gotta keep praying and hoping that it continues to work because we have learned from time to time again that even if it works it can actually end up stop working overtime, So we just gotta hope and pray...

Due to my Fiance I underwent a fuck ton of Medical Anxiety that has been kinda drifting off as of recently finally and I feel more like a proper person once again mostly. I think the big thing I think about is my Heart Health since I have a history of abusing the fuck out of Energy Drinks and Caffeine in general, alongside eating greasy foods. I think this ones kinda easier to get through since I just need to avoid eating Greasy foods and drinking like, sweet tea. But back then it was worried over the fact that if I had cancer and I would constantly feel places and I would think I feel a lump but I check the other side to notice that it was also there. Or that I would see something on me but it's just something I've had since I was childhood. Shit fucking sucks dealing with Medical Anxiety as much as I did.

2025 Goals

First, To not use Youtube. I have a huge disdain for Modern Youtube for what people post on there. If you don't know, I've been using Youtube since 2008 back when I was watching funny ass skits, Stick Figures, and other viral videos at the time that I have watched hundreds of times (litterally) but over the years the whole Meta with Youtube is either be a Drama Channel or Video Essays which sadly, The people around me enjoy that kind of thing but I don't, and even then my favorite people I like to watch may not make Videos for many months to even years and they may make an Upload that's so rare of them to post in the end. Like for example, I fucking love Cybershell mainly because he can talk about video games and be funny, Something that many channels tends to forget about is actually be entertainment rather than being background noise. He does not upload that Often at all and it can be really fucking random at times. Which I say, Fair enough. Everyone has a life and when something sticks that time will come to where he makes another video. However most people and even upcoming Video Creators produce nothing but Slop Content. At worst, Even get information very incorrectly. There's videos that has some kind of Artsy title like "The Jumpman that everyone has seen" and it's them just showing clips of Super Mario bros and explaining what's going on smashed into a 10 Minute video disguised as a Playthrough with NOTHING informative to the game at all. That wasn't a real video by the way but a mere example but would not surprise me if it DOES exist. Anyways, Youtube just doesn't have any new good videos that I like as much anymore and it feels as if the well has dried up completely and I only use it if I need to learn how to do something, In which I find myself reading more now than ever at this point while music is playing in the background. The Google Pillar to me has finally collapse as I have no reliance on anything google at this point.

Second, The Webcomic. This is something I'm actively working on and designing the layout for the website Parallel Nocturne. Which, what I got is strikingly similar design to my personal site for what I have going on so far, except it's way more focused on the Webcomic itself so there's really no side bars but instead a 800-900px width layout from top to bottom alongside a few more polished aspects. I'm REALLY excited to finally get shit out the door for it and I hope you all get to enjoy it! It's a bit nerve racking but I think I got the workflow figured out,Of course it will change with time.

Third, Moving Out. Yes this next year IF my Fiance manages to get through her treatment, We will be moving out and finally having our own personal place! Of course we do have Roommates and they're also just as excited to move out too. So far I found a place that's litterally like 3 minutes away from my current work so I just gotta hope that they don't run out of homes until then.

Final Thoughts

As for my final message, I am just so scared of Next Year if I'm honest. Things are just slightly looking up but I'm VERY FUCKING CAUTIOUS. I will also probably not make as many blogposts here since I will be Extra busy working on my Webcomic mainly and hardly anything interesting happens in my life but Idk, Life can throw surprises. As for my webcomic, There's always going to be a monthly Blogpost there as well that's more focused on the Comic itself and telling Progress of things and how things are looking going forward. Anyways, I hope you all had a good holiday season and pray that 2025 could be better. See you all later!